Burdens and blessings…

Super BowlLast week in this space I wrote about the mission God has for special needs dads. I described the five roles of the special needs dad as a warrior, a provider, a protector, an encourager and an equipper.

God desires for men everywhere to embrace their roles as dads of individuals with special needs with passion, purpose, and a true sense of calling.

Recently one of my good friends accompanied his eighteen-year-old son off to join the Marines. Another friend sent his eighteen-year-old child off to college.

My son turned eighteen this year as well. He still pees in the bathtub.

The gap between our life and the life of a typical family is sometimes so vast that it’s difficult to comprehend. As my wife likes to say, “Sometimes my reality is just too real.”

I remember in the early years desperately clinging to the words “developmental delay” because they somehow implied a time would come where his development would catch up. Those words were the anchor of my hope.

But as my son got older the gap widened instead of narrowing. Our new normal was constantly being modified and adjusted. I never dreamed that my son would remain non-verbal his whole life. I never imagined that I would never hear the words, “I love you,” much less hear him call me “dad.”

I never dreamed that he would never be able to walk independently without physical assistance. I never dreamed we would have to feed him all of his meals hand by hand, bite by bite. I never dreamed that I would never be able to get a good night’s sleep ever again. I never dreamed he would always need our help with bathing, getting dressed, shaving, and all of the other basic needs.

I never imagined he would never learn to read or write. I never dreamed he would never drive, marry, or give us grandchildren.

I never dreamed he would watch the same Wiggly Safari DVD every day before supper for fourteen years. I never dreamed we would never go camping, fishing, or travel to ballgames like my dad and I had done when I was a kid.

I never dreamed he would live with us even after becoming an adult.

All along this journey as a dad of son with profound special needs, so many expectations were surrendered and so many dreams died.

And then one day I realized that the burdens often provide the biggest blessings in our lives. For every dream that is dashed by the new normal as a dad of a child with special needs, a window is cracked into new insights and revelations from God.

I never dreamed I could love so unconditionally until God gave me a son with special needs. I never dreamed I would see the essence of the gospel lived out in my own house every day.

I never dreamed I could find joy in the simplest of things until I had a son with special needs. I never dreamed I could find such contentment in the daily laying down of my life for my son’s needs.

I never dreamed I would treasure having a teenage boy fall asleep on my shoulders at night. I never imagined the gratitude I could feel just sitting beside him on a swing at night, speaking blessings over him. I never imagined the sheer happiness I could have in just making him smile and laugh.

I never dreamed that God would use the life of my son so much to completely change me, inspire me, and draw me closer to Him. I also never imagined that my life would have so many tears and so many moments of despair. But I also can’t imagine it any other way.

No, my life didn’t turn out at all like I imagined or dreamed. But I also never imagined that I would want to go back and do it all over again like I do now.

For every dream that died, God replaced it with a blessing. I never imagined that life could be so hard and yet so good all at the same time. And I never dreamed that the things that created the most challenges would also bring the greatest blessings.

As fathers, God has given us amazing gifts in the form of our kids. God has designed us to be warriors, protectors, providers, encouragers, and equippers of our kids and our families.

This is our Super Bowl, dads. This is our Stanley Cup. Our kids are our masterpieces, our magnum opus, and our opportunity to see the essence of the gospel in our own homes. God calls us to be so much more than vacant dads. God has called us to be warriors, protectors, providers, encouragers, and equippers.

jeff-and-ja-300x225Jeff Davidson and his wife Becky started Rising Above Ministries when they realized the incredible gift and blessing their own son with special needs (Jon Alex) was to them. Jeff’s book, No More Peanut Butter Sandwiches, is available through Crosslink Publishing, Barnes and Noble and Amazon.

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About Dr. G

Dr. Stephen Grcevich serves as President and Founder of Key Ministry, a non-profit organization providing free training, consultation, resources and support to help churches serve families of children with disabilities. Dr. Grcevich is a graduate of Northeastern Ohio Medical University (NEOMED), trained in General Psychiatry at the Cleveland Clinic Foundation and in Child and Adolescent Psychiatry at University Hospitals of Cleveland/Case Western Reserve University. He is a faculty member in Child and Adolescent Psychiatry at two medical schools, leads a group practice in suburban Cleveland (Family Center by the Falls), and continues to be involved in research evaluating the safety and effectiveness of medications prescribed to children for ADHD, anxiety and depression. He is a past recipient of the Exemplary Psychiatrist Award from the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI). Dr. Grcevich was recently recognized by Sharecare as one of the top ten online influencers in children’s mental health. His blog for Key Ministry, www.church4everychild.org was ranked fourth among the top 100 children's ministry blogs in 2015 by Ministry to Children.
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